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Forum Post: A desperate plea for an alternative.

Posted 7 years ago on Oct. 15, 2011, 8 a.m. EST by hopiakuta (11) from Desert Hot Springs, CA
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My younger brother & father each died in 2011, within three months of each other; I believe that they each had exposed themselves to conditions that had hastened their death.

I am DonFphrnqTaub Persina. I have been suicidal since 1963, three years old; but, I am a cowardly suicide, that I do continue to procrastinate, in 2011.

My parents, particularly my mother, had abused me much thoughout my childhood, into young adulthood. &, my father would beat on her, chronically. Lately my mother tells me that she did not hit me, or, @ other times, that parents have a right to do whatever they want to do to their children.

My mother often says that I had been a perfect child; that seems nonsense to me. @ other times she says that I would dance & sing. Many ways to divert from the important issues; many ways to be dysfunctional.

I have been on Social Security Disability since 1985.

I had had an on again off again marriage for eighteen years.

For several years my parents had helped with a trailerhome, until my father died; but, that would no longer work.

I am chronic fatigue, obsessive compulsive, myofascial.

I do not know what to do about housing; I am terrified of being forced into housing where I would need to sleep within twenty feet of anyone else.

I do have a lot of adrenaline, & very negative emotion, when confronted with either excess noise &/or tobacco. If I am forced to sleep within twenty feet of anyone, possibly even somewhat further, I expect to get much of each.

Sometimes, I have smelt tobacco on clothing from days ago; although, there are other times when I cannot. I have smelt tobacco @ two hundred feet.

I do hope for a reasonable, workable housing choice.

I am terrified of what I might do to them, & what they might do to me.

If not, a death penalty would help; it could end all of my worry & fear, permanently.

I do care for a turtle, as well as an alleypussycat that I had found @ the trailer complex, named ParkWest, an horrific slumlord.

I do watch Directtv for Msnbc, Cnn, Freespeech, Worldlink. That & internet do help me to maintain some reality, if I have any @ all. I have not seen a movie theater movie since the 1990's, when with my wife; I do try to avoid restaurants as much as feasible. Mostly, I watch news.

I do wish that I could be employed @ something.

If you, or anyone else, are | is to write to me, electronic mail is not so reliable; I do have chronic problems with it.

Box #0022, Desert Hot, Ca 92240.

Thank You,

DonFphrnqTaub Persina



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[-] 1 points by hopiakuta (11) from Desert Hot Springs, CA 7 years ago
[-] 1 points by hopiakuta (11) from Desert Hot Springs, CA 7 years ago

&, today had been the Martin Luther King Statue Capitol Mall commemoration.

DonFphrnqTaub Persina

[-] 1 points by hopiakuta (11) from Desert Hot Springs, CA 7 years ago

Through these two days I have listened to a youtube video recording that someone had sent me via this webpage; that message, & that account, seem to be deleted, along with my second comment on this page:

« Now it all goes back in the box. »

« None of it was really yours. »

« And it turned out that if a suicide victim, these are usually young adults, had been abused as children,... »

« ... caused a genetic change in the brain that was,... »

« epigenetic »

In my interpretation I hear a confirmation that I either need to be vasectomized &/or suicided. It is a very long & complex video recording, documentary movie.

< http://youtube.com/watch?v=4Z9WVZddH9w >:

« Zeitgeist: Moving Forward | Official Release | 2011 »

Much of this movie does seem to indicate my clan's characteristics, my self, my parents, their parents, my brother's death, my father's death, our shared malfunction, shared dysfunction.

It ties it all to our international finance system. &, it does go much further than that: it does suggest how to reform our economy, cities, healthcare, et al.

There are many scientists included; but, I do not recall one scientific consultant having been a woman in this movie. I do not recall one police officer portrayed as a woman.

I do know virtually nothing about Latin; but, I can spell « et cetera », &, it is not « eck cetera »: I do wish for a cunning linguist to help with that.

In much of the movie they compare conservative to liberal, they compare Republican to liberal, & rarely do they say Democrat; they do sort of denounce socialist along with each of the other categories.

They do seem to want « the invisible hand of truth » to replace « the invisible hand of the market », as well as all extant economy, every extant politic, et cetera; they do seem to believe in some god, some theology, some theism, just as much as those whom they denounce.

< http://thezeitgeistmovement.com >

< http://zeitgeistmovie.com >

< http://thevenusproject.com >

Does « Jacque Fresco » mean « Jack Fresh » or « Jack Cool »?

Yesterday, I marched in Occupy Palm Springs 92262 92263 92264, from Parocela to Alejo Road on Palm Drive. We were there with an American Heat motorcycle day, which includes nine events called « Globe of Death Stunt Show ». One courteous motorcyclist kindly told those of us chanting to « Shut the fuck up. » We were far quieter than the American heaters, & he had been the only one who had had his fuck opened.

It does seem that Earth is a globe of death, deathglobe, deathEarth.

Which is preferable?: suicide or homicide?

occupywallstreet occupyEarth

DonFphrnqTaub Persina

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